Feelings, emotions.....hmmmmm. So blissful and yet so terrible!!!
They can raise you up to the sky and the very next moment they can push you into abyss.Falling in love is that fall which all and sundry long to experience......it makes you feel on top of the world!!! You feel as if your life has found that perfection which it had been seeking since infinity. You don't desire anything else. You are free from all cravings and aversions. There comes such freshness, such joy which never seems to leave you. The intoxication surpasses all other known sources of happiness.
Only one thought encapsulates your whole being. You only think of your BELOVED. You wish to know everything about them : where they go, what they are doing right now and so on. No matter whatever you do for your beloved, it just seems insufficient!!. You yearn to do more and more for them...even a single moment without them seems just unbearable...and with them you transcend time...
Unfortunately, all this goody-goody stuff doesn't last long. Slowly demands start arising. Even a trivial gesture of negligence causes so much hurt...you become so vulnerable. Their not looking at you, not smiling ..makes you so much miserable...all distortions then come into the picture. And lo....if suppose your beloved breaks your heart.....then that is the most horrifying pain on earth....the person whom you loved the most, now you don't even want to see them and that makes you more worse...that earlier tenderness is now replaced by stiffness.
But, this heart break may become a pivotal point in your life.....from transient and conditional love it can move you to such ultimate form of love that is free of all negativities....free of dependence on outer gestures!!! and even the person!!!
I'll talk about that later. Till then goodbye....enjoy the variegated festival of HOLI!!

HAPPY HOLI....
JAI GURUDEV!!!
lots of love......
APOORVA